One Sweet World

So...I said that I discovered a lot of stuff while down in Florida...but...I realized one major thing...I miss my old group of friends. I hate myself for not keeping in touch with them...I hate myself for just letting the gap come between us. It's so hard to talk to them any more, too. It seems that I have nothing in common with them any more. Like, I can't hold more than a 5 minute conversation with them...and that 5 minutes normally consists of hey...hey...whats up...nothing, you....nothing...thats cool. And that's it! I hate hate hate it! I just wish that my bestest friend in the whole world could come over and we could orgasmic dance on my stairs again....and make grilled cheese with the waffle maker...and do all the silly stuff that we used to do before....before...before what? Before I got a boyfriend and decided to spend every waking moment with him? Before I decided that I wasn't going to call any more? Before I got a friend from my school? Before I thought that we were too far apart already to be able to close the gap? This summer has gone downhill fast....and it's left me at the bottom listening to Damien Rice and Dashboard Confessional...crying my pathetic blue eyes out...