One Sweet World

2005-10-07T23:22:00.000-07:00

everything is falling apart...my life stinks right now...i feel that i have no control over anything that's happening right now...i just want to be done with it all....

"So Impossible" ~ Dashboard Confessional

2005-08-09T23:22:00.000-07:00

I'm beginning to think that that line: "there's somebody out there for everyone" is a load of bull. Why? Because I honestly don't think that there is a guy out there for me. Why? Because every time that something is going good in a relationship I mess it up. It's because I know that it's going to mess up sooner or later...so why not make it sooner rather than prolong the agony...right? I think that I'm just going to give up on trying to meet guys. I don't care anymore. Tonight was proof...

"Kool Whip (Remix)" ~ Steev Richter

2005-08-05T01:11:00.000-07:00

So...tonight i was feeling bored...so what did i do? why...I googled Steev Richter! and wouldn't you know...i came up with 278 matches?!?!? so i came upon this site that claims to be the "official" steev richter site...which i was doubting...but then i go to the photos...and i see the cutest thing in the world....it was labeled..."The Best Gig Ever"...and do you know what it was???!!? it was pics of him sitting at the piano with his neices and nephews climbing all over him and such...it was soooo adorable...it made me go..."awwww!"....oh yes...and then it made me sad because it made me think of bsg and that made me remember that it is no longer open...im going to kill chris burns!

"The Best Deceptions" ~ Dashboard Confessional

2005-08-03T23:47:00.000-07:00

Mmmmmmm...chocolate pudding and Dashboard Confessional...please tell me...could this night get any better?! Amanda's coming over on Monday and we're writing songs...it should be very productive...seeing as I can write songs on the guitar and she's an awesome lyricist! But...yea...I like how no one comments anymore...this makes me upset! Even Andy doesn't comment anymore...and i could always at least count on him...oh well...if you people don't start commenting...im going to shut down my site...just like i did my xanga...so comment!

"Fever 103" ~ Sylvia Plath

2005-07-28T23:41:00.000-07:00

Pure? What does it mean?
The tongues of hell
Are dull, dull as the triple

Tongues of dull, fat Cerberus
Who wheezes at the gate. Incapable
Of licking clean

The aguey tendon, the sin, the sin.
The tinder cries.
The indelible smell

Of a snuffed candle!
Love, love, the low smokes roll
From me like Isadora’s scarves, I’m in a fright

One scarf will catch and anchor in the wheel.
Such yellow sullen smokes
Make their own element. They will not rise,

But trundle round the globe
Choking the aged and the meek,
The weak

Hothouse baby in its crib,
The ghastly orchid
Hanging its hanging garden in the air,

Devilish leopard!
Radiation turned it white
And killed it in an hour.
Greasing the bodies of adulterers
Like Hiroshima ash and eating in.
The sin. The sin.

Darling, all night
I have been flickering, off, on, off, on.
The sheets grow heavy as a lecher’s kiss.

Three days. Three nights.
Lemon water, chicken
Water, water make me retch.

I am too pure for you or anyone.
Your body
Hurts me as the world hurts God. I am a lantern—

My head a moon
Of Japanese paper, my gold beaten skin
Infinitely delicate and infinitely expensive.

Does not my heat astound you. And my light.
All by myself I am a huge camellia
Glowing and coming and going, flush on flush.

I think I am going up,
I think I may rise—
The beads of hot metal fly, and I, love, I

Am a pure acetylene
Virgin
Attended by roses,

By kisses, by cherubim,
By whatever these pink things mean.
Not you, nor him

Nor him, nor him
(My selves dissolving, old whore petticoats)—
To Paradise.

"The Freshmen" ~ The Verve Pipe

2005-07-16T23:32:00.000-07:00

So, my blogspot is definitely becoming my xanga! hehehehe...yes...im obsessed! I had an awesome day today. A cutie came into work...he reminded me of Jared and Jason which equals a pothead...oh well! I read like 10 chapters in White Oleander which is the best book in the world! Went to church. It's amazing that a boy that you haven't talked to in quite some time can still make your knees weak, can still make it impossible for you to walk up to communion without almost falling to the floor. Hung out with Katie. That's always an adventure. It started out with us upset...but then got much much better. And now I am exTREMEly happy right. No, seriously, you should see me! I have this stupid grin on my face, smack it off...smack it off! But, ummm, yea! I'm way uber excited about Warped Tour...it's in 4 days!!!! woot woot!!!! This summer is getting oh so much better! I just hope that there isn't some big KABOOM! where it all crashes down on me....

"Remember To Breathe" ~ Dashboard Confessional

2005-07-16T00:19:00.000-07:00

So today was an awesomely cool day! Picked up Eliz from summer gym and went to Wendy's...saw my miss Caelin...oh how excited she was! Then Eliz and I went to the mall and did "laps"...hehehehe...drove around and listened to The Frames..."they're Irish" "they don't sound Irish, there's no bagpipes or fiddles and whatnot!" "they're Irish...Erin told me they were!" "oh wait...he's talking..okay...they're Irish" "hah! i told you they were!" Fun times! Pulling over to the side of the road to put the top down...making messy hair creations with my bangs! Came back to my house...copied cds...played my guitar...went to work! Hahha...that was funny...because i didn't have to work tonight! I showed up at work...and then Kait did...and she was like...you work next friday! oops!!!! hehhe! Called up my Katie Kathleen and we hung out...i can't put into words how fun our evening was! I forgot how much fun I had with her and why I never hung out with my old friends...we never did this! Driving around...screaming "If I Had $1,000,000" at the tops of our lungs..."they have pre-wrapped sausages but they don't have pre-wrapped bacon" "well, can you blame them?" "uh, yea!" ... "we wouldn't have to eat Kraft dinners...but we would eat Kraft dinners" "of course we would! we'd just eat more!" "and buy all the fanciest ketchups" "that's right! all the fanciest dijon ketchups..mmmmm!" hehehe! Jamming to "Right Now" by SR71 and seeing the cutie...trying to catch up with the cutie...but turned around too slowly! harumph! Oh jeezie peezies...there are just way too many things to write! Calling Jam-el! hehehe...im pretty sure that he did pee his pants! too bad he never answered! Oo oo oo...indeed...you must call my cell and listen to my new voice mail..katie and i made them together...it rocks!

"Semi-Charmed Life" ~ Third Eye Blind

2005-07-15T10:55:00.000-07:00

This is my official summer song...mmm...how i love it so! So, last night was sooo much fun! I went to the Indian's game with my family. My uncle has these aMAzing season tickets...3rd and 4th row right behind the opponent's dugout! Ahhhh!!!! It was hilarious...because it was raining...but i told my parents that we were going anyway...because i heart baseball (watching...playing it is another story!). So, we had to wear ponchos! heheheh...my mommy got stuck with the yellow one....so we called her Big Bird the whole night...she wasn't too happy about that one! Courtney got a free hot dog from a guy that was sitting next to my dad behind us...and she was all concentrated on her hot dog...you know...opening and such...when all of a sudden there's this HUGE close-up of my sister on the screen...it was hilarious! We went to Friendly's afterward...which is like our tradition...go to Cleveland = you go to Friendly's on the way home! lol! I talked to my mommy about Warped Tour and maybe (ahem) riding up with katie? (I totally did this in the sweetest, most innocent voice that i could...and totally nonchalant(sp?) too!) And she said yes!!!!! I am sooo uber excited now!!!! I am going to go get my check cashed (so I can pay Jimmy that $33 for the concert) and then pick up my Elizabeth from summer gym and go visit my miss Caelin at Wendy's!!!! How I love summer and being able to drive!

"Crash Into Me" ~ Dave Matthews Band

2005-07-12T23:56:00.000-07:00

I was soooo excited...i got to hang out with me amber 2 days in a row! Yay!!!! I talked to so many people tonight that I haven't talked to in forever! For some reason I feel the need to fill up my schedule this week...iunno why...but i do! It's like jam packed! Today I was lying on my bed...listening to the good ol' DMB....and for some reason it made me think of horses. And that made me realize that I haven't ridden in 5 years! 5 freakin' years not on a horse! I love horses, too! That made me sad...so I added it to my "Awesome Boyfriend" list...im a freak..i know..but that's why you love me oh so much! duh! I learned how to play "Crash Into Me/Crash" (whatever the hell it's called!) by DMB...i was so excited that I literally played it for 2 hours straight today! what a fruit i am! Warped Tour in 9 days! I can't wait! I get to see my Hawthorne Heights and My Chemical Romance!!! woo hoo!!!! \m/ Thank you to AJ for making me laugh a million bajillion times as hard as i ever have! And im cooler than any and all types of fried rice...chinese...rice-a-rony...you name it...im cooler than it...does that answer your question?

"The Good Fight" ~ Dashboard Confessional

2005-07-11T11:52:00.000-07:00

So...I said that I discovered a lot of stuff while down in Florida...but...I realized one major thing...I miss my old group of friends. I hate myself for not keeping in touch with them...I hate myself for just letting the gap come between us. It's so hard to talk to them any more, too. It seems that I have nothing in common with them any more. Like, I can't hold more than a 5 minute conversation with them...and that 5 minutes normally consists of hey...hey...whats up...nothing, you....nothing...thats cool. And that's it! I hate hate hate it! I just wish that my bestest friend in the whole world could come over and we could orgasmic dance on my stairs again....and make grilled cheese with the waffle maker...and do all the silly stuff that we used to do before....before...before what? Before I got a boyfriend and decided to spend every waking moment with him? Before I decided that I wasn't going to call any more? Before I got a friend from my school? Before I thought that we were too far apart already to be able to close the gap? This summer has gone downhill fast....and it's left me at the bottom listening to Damien Rice and Dashboard Confessional...crying my pathetic blue eyes out...

"Scars" ~ Papa Roach

2005-07-10T23:52:00.000-07:00

Welps...i am back! It was soooo much fun! But I missed everyone loads....but I discovered some stuff while i was done there...that's because vacation is my thinking time. I decided that the perfect boyfriend would take me to parks and swing on the sets for our dates. He would also dance with me to Damien Rice whenever I wanted to...and he wouldn't laugh at me if I started crying because Damien Rice does that to me...stop laughing!!!!! I discovered that Kilo by Axe smells good on hot boys...but extremely nauseating on the not so hot ones. I discovered that I am check-out-able to the british boys...it was silly...we were putt putting ("sir, please get your putter out of the whale's ass. This is a place of miniature business!") and this group of cutie british boys were behind us...i was putting and in total concentration (i am the putt putt goddess ill have you know!) and my mom leans in and out of no where is like...."that boy just checked you out"...how creepy is it that your mom notices stuff like this...how creepy is it that your dad quite possibly more than likely noticed this?!?! But...i could never muster up the nerve to date a brit...they wear black socks with everything! Yes...but...more updating later...i must get to bed apparently....even though i can stay up as late as i want because it is summer and i don't have to wake up early! harumph! stupid parental units!

"Buffalo Soldier" ~ Bob Marley

2005-07-05T10:10:00.000-07:00

Hey all!!!! I'm down in Florida right now! We're getting ready to go to Cocoa Beach today, which is an hour away! It's been fun down here...I got sun burnt on my belly, chest, and thighs yesterday at Blizzard Beach...I look ridiculous! I have also now mastered the art of detecting British people...they wear black socks and really ugly clothing! I'll be home on Sunday...hope all is well back in Ohio! Much loves!

"Sad But True" ~ Metallica

2005-06-30T09:51:00.000-07:00

So...Tuesday night was hilarious...Katie and I getting attacked by "ghosts", her freaking out because i slammed shut the sun roof cover and she thought it was something attacking the car...how silly! Last night was okay...spent much of the day doing laundry and packing...then went to Andy's...where I knew absolutely no one except for Andy and his sister Beth. Then Katie showed up and it was all better. Went to Steak N' Shake today with Andy and Courtney. Andy's applying for a job there...which is good...because he said that the employees get a 65% discount...which means like $.50 strawberry cheesecake sippable sundae shakes! woo hoo \m/! But...indeed...i leave for Florida tonight at 8...which makes me kind of sad. When I get back...on the 10th...Katie leaves and Andy leaves...which leaves me with no one to hang out with! I am oh so sad about that! Oh well...maybe this'll make me hang out with those friends that i miss dearly but never hang out with...so...yes....i'll have my cell phone with me everywhere i go down there...so call it...so that i will be happy...good bye!

"The Joker" ~ Steve Miller Band

2005-06-27T10:00:00.000-07:00

So much silliness has gone on since I last wrote. Okay...so Friday night started off boring but ended well. I got a call from Hershes...this restaurant by my house...and they wanted to interview me on Saturday...then I went to work...which was boring as almighty heck! Then I went and picked up Katie and we went to Citi Church...and Katie thought that I was going to get towed because I parked in a "Sweet Basil Customer Parking Only" spot...I proceeded to tell Katie that they could probably care less and we went in...the place made us sad because Heather Waugh was playing and she used to play at BSG...so I decided that we needed to kick that joint in it's pee pee...so we did...and ended up at Woodland...in the midst of swinging Katie and I decided that the perfect boyfriend would take us swinging all the time...then we got the idea to bring my car onto the playground so that we could sing while we swing! hehehehe! So I was too high (swinging!) so I made Katie go get my car. It was silly. Some old guy was walking his dog behind the school, and he just kind of stood there and stared at us...what fun! Then, Katie and I see this tan car drive by! IT WAS JARED AND JASON!!!!! So they stopped and we swung and had much fun with them...then Greg stopped by and told us about this mad fireworks show...Katie and I danced to Rusted Root without our shoes on in the grass...which led to me getting dozens of mosquito bites on my feet...then we went to the fireworks show. I felt very sad there because Katie had Greg...and I had no one...harumph! Oh well! Saturday was a bore...stupid Pierre and Ben never showed up...getting stopped by the cop...good times! Yesterday I went shopping with my mom, grandma, and sis....hahahhaah "we got a freakin Ranger Rick in the front seat!" (my sis talking about my grandma) My grandma makes us all on edge and want to kill each other so we don't kill her...but she means well...and the sad thing is...I don't think that she thinks she's doing anything wrong! I was supposed to have breakfast with Katie this morning...but she cancelled on me to go hang out with her doctor! That's okay! I'm gonna take lunch to my daddy! So there Katie Kathleen!!! Eat that!!!!! Call the cell if you wanna do anything...because I leave Thursday night for vacation..."...You're the cutest thing That I ever did see I really love your peaches Want to shake your tree..." this is the very best song in ze world! Listen to it or die!

"Kool Whip (acoustic piano hip-hop remix) - Steev Richter

2005-06-24T08:23:00.000-07:00

So...I haven't written in awhile. I've been kind of upset, and when I'm upset I either don't write or I write pointless stuff. Be quiet...my stuff isn't always pointless, be nice! But, yea, so on Father's Day, my mom, sis, and I were over at my Grandparent's house. Well, we were done with breakfast and were all just sitting around talking. Mind you, I was in a deep conversation with my uncle about why I was switching schools, when all of a sudden, I hear this snapping noise. I turn and look at my Grandpa, and what is he doing? He's snapping his fingers at my sister and I to clean up the dishes and go wash them. This did not go over well. I still have yet to speak to him, that made me soooo entirely upset. DO NOT SNAP YOUR FINGERS AT ME!!!!! I AM NOT YOUR SERVANT!!!!! If it would've been anybody else, I think that I would've taken the hot strada and dumped it on their body! ARGH!!!!!! But, yeah. So, I get to go to Warped Tour!!!! That excites me oh so much! And I leave for Florida in a week, it'll be nice to just get away from Mansfield for a little bit, but I will miss my friends. I'm listening to Steev Richter's CD, pretending that I'm sitting at BSG, drinking my peach Jet Tea, at the usual table, with Jared and Jason, Jared playing with my cell phone. Reed just walked in, walking his silly walk, comes over, sits down, then all the guys go out for a smoke and I'm left inside by myself. Katie Kathleen comes in, I give her big hugs, she goes and gets her Chai Latte, and comes back to the table. We sit and talk about the boys that we currently like. Jared and Jason come back in, Reed stays out in his car and listens to his music. Katie and I get bored, so we go out and sit on her car and listen to music. We come inside again. Steev is playing again. We sit in our usual table and listen. We're still bored, but we stay until 11 because the place feels like home. I think that I just wrote down exactly what we always did. I miss BSG oh so much. I work tonight, but I think I'm heading to Citi Church after with Katie Kathleen to watch her friend play, if my dad shall let me. Give me a call on the cell.

"Kool Whip (acustic piano hip-hop remix)

2005-06-24T08:22:00.000-07:00

"Caring Is Creepy" - The Shins

2005-06-18T20:31:00.000-07:00

Yay!!!! I finally finished Katie Kathleen's cds!!!! woo hoo!!! \m/ But, that's what happens when someones grounded and gets to spend 4 1/2 hours all by their lonesomes. But, I must say, I do believe that this is the best mix cd that I've ever made. I'll have to make myself a copy. Well, tonight was Warped Tour in Columbus. I should've gone. Because I don't think that I'm going to be able to go to Warped Tour in Cleveland, which makes me upset. See, there's this seminar that I decided to go to with my Theology 2 teacher, because I thought that Warped Tour was on the 23rd not the 21st. So, now I don't want to go. Plus, when I got the itinerary, it didn't sound so exciting either. Blah! I just hope that my mom can get the $69 back so that some of that can go towards Warped Tour, because I am going! I will go! I have to!!! I'll cry and be oh so sad this year if I don't get to! I saw Jared today at Krogers, it made me very sad because it reminded me of BSG. Harumph! Somebody needs to buy that place just so that it opens up again and I can have somewhere to go. I miss it. Tomorrow is Father's Day and my dad has to work and then go help out down at the church. So, the only time that I'm going to see him tomorrow is at his lunch, when me mummy, sis, and I take him some. It makes me sad that I don't know him that well. That's what I'm gonna do this summer, get to know my dad. It's a nice thought, but I doubt it'll happen. "Maybe that's all a family really is; a group of people who miss the same imaginary place." ~ Garden State So I just looked at a past boy of mine's Xanga. I was reading through all of his past posts in such and I came to the date that I broke up with him. So I read, and I realized that I should've waited. It made start to think. I mean, I don't want him anymore. But I broke up with him on the worst of days! Like, he lost this paper that determined whether or not he graduated, his aunt died, then I break up with him. I was such a heartless bitch! I should've been there for him. But, I wasn't. I make myself sick sometimes. If I was another person, looking at myself right now, I think that I would run up, kick myself in my danger zone, and then punch myself repeatedly in the face. I'm so heartless. I'm apologizing to everyone that I've ever acted this way towards, I'm apologizing to that guy for not being there for him when he needed me the most, I'm sorry.

"Say Goodbye" ~ Dave Matthews Band

2005-06-17T20:03:00.000-07:00

I think that the best thing of my life is thinking about how great a song is and then hearing it on AOL Radio! "Screaming Infidelities" by Dashboard Confessional MTV Unplugged Version is an awesome song! Today was a pretty good day considering the circumstances! So, last night I got grounded because I didn't call my mom when Katie and I went to the mall. Bwah!!!! So, I got grounded for this whole weekend! I was so upset that I decided to wake up early this morning (9:30) and go workout, I was on the eliptical/cross trainer for 1 hour!!!! Then I called ChadA and told him that I couldn't go to his graduation/birthday party, which made him sad. So I told him to come over. It was fun. We danced in my bedroom and it made me feel better, but lonely. Then I went to the public library and got some cd's to finish up Katie Kathleen's and Caelin's cd's and I also borrowed An Officer And A Gentleman which makes me even more lonely! Getting the cds made me extremely happy because I got Dashboard Confessional Unplugged, Dave Matthews Band Live at Luther College, Def Leppard "Hysteria," Gin Blossoms, George Harrison Best Of, and Garden State soundtrack. The Garden State soundtrack is definetly good for Katie Kathleen and I because it is totally a "hanging-out-on-top -of-a-car-gazing-at-stars" cd. Indeed. And then tonight, my daddy taught me how to play Cribbage! I whooped his butt! Twice! Woot, woot! Go me!!!! I'm sad. And lonely. I need a hug. I need a friendly phone call. I miss the fun of BSG. Curses to Chris. I miss friends. "Go back to being friends Tonight let's be lovers, say you will And hear me call, soft-spoken whispering love A thing or two I have to say here Tonight let's go all the way then Love I'll see you, Just for this evening Let's strip down, trip out at this One evening starts with a kiss Run away And tomorrow back to being friends Lovers...love...lovers Just for tonight, one night...love you And tomorrow say goodbye" Goodness what a deliciously good song by DMB!!!!!

"The Longest Story" ~ Daphne Loves Derby

2005-06-14T20:47:00.000-07:00

Since I don't have a Xanga anymore and can't tell people what my current favorite songs/movies/books are at the top of my posts, I might as well use that title bar thingy for it! So yes, this is really really really good song by them, it's all piano! Indeed, I'm in love with this band! I thank Katie Kathleen for making me their cd and forcing me to listen to them! I had loads of fun tonight. But, I always do with Katie. Even when there's absolutely nothing to do, I can always count on having a good time with her! Oo oo oo...another good song by Daphne Loves Derby is "Midnight Highway." Yes, indeed, it is excellente! I got a new baby doll, her name is Jillian, she's a precious moments doll. I found out, when I got home and showed her to my mommy, that she looks exactly like Baby, my old baby doll. Except Jillian has brown hair in pigtails, Baby had blonde hair in a pony, and Jillian is holding a cake, Baby's arms just kinda hung there. I think Baby is in my memory box. Hm hm hm. I colored Muppet Babies pictures for an hour when I got home. It was fun. I sat in my room, played "Deserts Love Oceans" by Daphne Loves Derby on my guitar, decided to color, messed up and threw one away, and then started to color Kermit and Miss Piggy when my sister told me that I could get online. Kermit is all colored, but Miss Piggy doesn't have any skin pigment yet. Oh well, she'll just have to be patient and enjoy being paper white for a lil bit. Harumph! I MISS MY XANGA!!!! I WANT IT BACK! I MISS MY BSG!!!! I WANT IT BACK!!!! I'm now accepting donations for the "Let's Buy BSG" foundation. You can put the donations outside of BSG. I'll get them, since, when I drive by, I still look to see if anyone is there. ::cries buckets::

2005-06-13T08:57:00.000-07:00

Last night was loads of fun! I think that I'm going to start a Drive-In club, but there have to be rules! NO ONE CAN MAKE OUT!!!!!!!!!! There was definitely a couple next to us making out in the bed of the kid's truck. But, yeah. Katie and I didn't really watch any of Madagascar because she was talking to John and then we were trying to get Sara to come, and she finally did! Yay! It was silly because before Mr and Mrs Smith came on we decided that we should take all of the canvas off of my car. Ummmm, yeah, easier said than done! Needless to say, we just took the moonroof canvas off and left it at that. Our hands were extremely dirty after this, we looked like we'd been under the hood of my car! Yea, but Mr and Mrs Smith was a dumb movie that didn't make sense, so Katie and I left and headed back to her house. Once there we decided that we were going to sleep outside in Katie's tent, but that didn't work because Tim was the last one that used it and he lost the polls, so you can't pitch a tent without polls, so we went inside and got online. We made a silly story for Andy's upsaid (which, by the way, I know we won!) and then I decided that I was hungry so Katie and I went down to the kitchen to make some yummy stuffed triangle nacho thingys. Then Katie's hot friend John called. Indeed, him and I talked until 5 in the morning! We have a lot of stuff in common and it was soooo easy to talk to him, even though I never had before. It's scary, weird, and cool all at the same time! I just got done cleaning my bathroom (finally!) and it's too hot to eat, so I'm just chilling in my basement trying to waste time so that I don't have to clean my bedroom! I'll do that tomorrow! Leave a comment!!!!

2005-06-12T17:08:00.000-07:00

Today was kind of random. Went to work, blah! I spent all day coloring and reading "Prince Caspian." It's the 4th book in the Chronicles of Narnia. Yes, I'm a nerd because I'm reading those now, when I'm 16. While everyone else read it when they were in like 5th grade! Hehehehehe! But, yeah! And then I went to two graduation parties with Katie and Jeen! One of which was my ex Mike's, which is silly because the other one was Katie's ex! Silly! I'm excited because Katie, Courtney, maybe Jolene, and I are going to the drive-in to watch Madagascar! I'm soo excited! My first drive-in in soooo long! I'm not allowed to go to those with boys though, because we all know what happens there! Just kidding, but I'm seriously not allowed to with boys, which is practical. I had loads of fun yesterday and I'm way uber excited about friday! hehehehehe, yay for Katie Kathleen!!!!! Woot woot!!!!!

2005-06-11T19:17:00.000-07:00

"The Sound" - Further Seems Forever If I only had an ocean to compliment this sky
Id pull it down, Id paint it for you and never question why
Cause red would mean you love me
And blue would mean you care
But black my heart when left alone to cold and killing stairs
This is the burning of a dreamThis is the burning of a dream
[Chorus]The sound now turns to silence
But I keep spinning around
Naked in the rain of my own tears
As they fall into the bucket of your apologies
While closing everyone else's eyes
Because your own are shut
Not to see the volume rise again
Feels like im waiting in the last hiding place on earth
Hang this noose around my neck but im saved
For one hundred thousand memories wash ashore
Be swept away by forever
Sail away from you
Now the rain has ended
So the sun can shine through me
The sound now turns to silence
But I keep spinning around
Naked in the rain of my own tears
As they fall into the bucket of your apologies
While closing everyone else's eyes
Because your own are shut
Not to see the volume rise again
Only you could row my boat ashore
And only you could set my fears at rest
But until lack of sympathies regress
I'm still waiting
I'm still waiting for your grace
The sound now turns to silence
But I keep spinning around
Naked in the rain of my own tears
As they fall into the bucket of your apologies
While closing everyone else's eyes
Because your own are shut
Not to see the volume rise again

This has got to be the best song ever!!!! Everyone should listen to it...I could listen to this song until my stereo/car radio spit the cd out! Awesome song! I had a really fun night tonight...i just wish that Meaott could've come along too, oh well! There'll be other times! People should comment on my site...like now! Do it!

My Tornado Is Resting

2005-06-09T19:52:00.000-07:00

It was nice to wake up this morning and see that I had a loverly message from my ambuh! watched Hi Hi Puffy Ami Yumi! I love that show! It's soooooo addicting! Then, I picked Ambuh up from the school of gangsta's and we ate some chinese food from the expressive empress (empress express). Buying a pair of 26 cent tights is fun...actually i didn't buy them! muahahahahha! Ambuh's house was too hot so on to Barnes N' Nobles for haircuts! Ripping a page out of a magazine and then seeing someone I knew right after it...i know that they saw me...i just know it! TJMaxx a go go then home to eat dinner. Andy coming, getting ice cream, "fat people shouldn't work at fast food places! They make you fat! Go work at a department store!" andy and i having a party. watching the incredibles. Oh yes, and my daddy and andy changed his headlights so now he has those hallogen ones that blind everyone...how mean! Yes, today was better than expected! I'm so excited...tomorrow I get to clean my bathroom, run errands for my sister, and then drive all the way to marion to have lunch with her....im only happy about that last lil bit o' sunshine! Call my cell and leave me messages to wake up to!

I'M DONE!!!!!!

2005-06-08T20:47:00.000-07:00

Yes, indeed, I am done with St. Pete's for forever!!!! Yay!!!! I took pictures of everyone that I'd miss, well, I missed a few, but oh well! I hope that this summer isn't going to suck as much as I think it is! Because that would be sad. I have to retrace my steps and think about what I did before BSG. What did I do to have fun? I'll never see any of my friends anymore. Because I mostly saw them at BSG. Where's Steev? Where's Jason? Where's Jared? Where's Josh-man? Where's Reed? Where's the Travis Cult? Where Are The Freakin' BSG Kids?!?!?!? Oh, but Katie and I did see Reed tonight. Indeed, we were driving around because we were oh so bored trying to find something to do and were driving on lex. ave. and pass by Reed's house in front of the cemetary. And guess who's there? None only Reed's favoritist people, the police! Ahahahahahahahaha! Katie and I got a good laugh out of that one! So yes, I don't want this summer to be a repeat of tonight...so please, please, please, people CALL ME!!!!! Make me do fun stuff this summer! PLEASE! I beg of you! I don't want this summer to suck! five seven one two seven eight one!

One day down...Three more to go!

2005-06-03T20:54:00.000-07:00

So so so....first day of finals is over with! Getting out early helped...i think that I got B's on both exams! It was sooo funny though! After you get done with your exam...you have to stay uber silent...and clean out your textbook to hand back in...so Pookie was doing just that...cleaning out her textbook...she has one of those stretchy latexy thingies for a cover...so she took that off...and then proceeded to put it on her arms....it was hilarious! She looked like a freakin' seal! Ah...it was so funny! And the lunch table figured out that when I laugh extremely hard...my scalp turns red...which is kinda scary...but funny at the same time...so pardon me next time i laugh in front of you and am covering the top of my head! Also...Caelin's party was not today...it was a mean trick that my mind played on me...telling me that it was today....no...it's really next month...when i can't go...which makes me way uber angry! Oh well...i shall have a way uber cool dandy sandy Caelin Kelsey dancing on my steps sleepover and we shall celebrate then! I went to see Madagascar tonight with Andy and my sister...it was extremely silly! I recommend it to everyone! Then we went to Steak N' Shake and had a crack whore waitress and scary staring guy sat behind us again! Ugh! Oo oo oo..i applied for a job at Hershes..or something like that..it's a restaurant by my house... hopefully i will be waitressing there! Two exams down...only 6 more to go!

Too Cool For School

2005-06-02T11:10:00.000-07:00

Indeed, today I am being too cool for school. I woke up this morning, went to school, and after lunch said to myself, "Self, you are way too cool for this!" And just walked right out of school and drove home.
There are so many lies in that paragraph it's not even funny! My mommy let me come home from school at 11:30 because I have this huge biology exam tomorrow that I needed to have loads of time to study for! And, I didn't even drive home because my sister's stupid car had to break down so she had to use mine! Harumph! I spent 2 hours studying biology and am now in the process of eventually getting to studying for geography. Exams are not fun and I cannot wait until they are over!
Yay! Tomorrow is Friday! Which means Miss Caelin's graduation party! Which means funness and loves! Which means happiness!!!!!!!!

Weekend Report

2005-05-30T14:08:00.000-07:00

So this weekend started off bad but ended good! Saturday night I went out with Katie only to realize that I couldn't live without bsg, like I kept telling myself. For the first time since I got my license, I was home 20 minutes early. Then yesterday came! I went up to Cedar Point with my sis Courtney, her friend Jessica, and Andy. Then Andy and I met Katie and her friend Jolene up there. I had fun, but didn't get to ride Millenium Force because of the stupid headaches that I kept getting. I'm sorry to report, but I think that I have motion sickness. Today is Memorial Day, it's boring. Friday is my first exam and I'm freaking out. I have no clue what is going to be on the biology exam! Bwah! But, only 6 more days and then I'm done with St.Pete's for forever!!!!!!!!

Blah!

2005-05-26T18:36:00.000-07:00

So, today felt like it lasted 3 weeks! It went that slowly! My Geography class watched Hotel Rwanda, it made me feel really bad. And it made me realize how I take a lot of stuff that I have for granted. We Americans can be so self-centered! But, on a lighter note, I only have school until 12:50 tomorrow! Yay! And then Katie Kathleen and I are going to lunch and then I shall go with her to get her hair done for prom! And then I have to work, which is no fun! But, I might be getting a job at Coney Island, doing take-out and register work, so that would be another source of income! Summer is coming soon, I can smell, I can feel it, but it just isn't here yet! Harumph! And Andy, you're a merman not a mermaid! Geez!

ello!

2005-05-23T19:04:00.000-07:00

ello ello...this is my first post...so...ummm...yea...haven't had a blog since my xanga days...i miss blogging...visited otterbein on saturday and decided that private colleges are not the thing for me. I think that public colleges with about 5,000-15,000 kids is the thing for me. Liberal Arts colleges are definietly out of the question! so..indeed...ill probably have some better posts coming up! Vale! (goodbye in Latin...because im cool like that!)